Im not sure

i have no idea as to what it is im doing with my life. It seems like everything is getting harder and harder. I wish the world would stop turning so i can catch up with it. im just being a baby i guess. To be honest with you i havent felt loved in a really long time and i know my family loves me, but im talking about love from a guy. All these guys keep coming around and asking me for a physical relationship when i want an all around relationship. Why is it so hard to want someone to love me more than i love them. Its gotta be the hardest thing to find since its been three, almost four years since a guy said he loved me.