Just not sure of it now.

I went to see my little sisters graduation, and you ended up being there. At first i wanted you to just leave, you showing up made me mad. But i just made myself have fun no matter what you were doing to make me mad. But this time you just so happened to be nice to me. The fact that you were nice to me gave me hope that my old josh was somewhere inside of that monster that all those drugs created. You were my first love and i am hoping my last.I told you when we broke up that you were always going to have my heart and you do. At first I wasnt sure i wanted to be your friend, but if i cant have you as a a lover ill take you as a friend but i will and always have loved you. No matter how hard i tried not a single relationship worked for me since we left each other.For three years i tried my best to keep you outta my life and for a while i succeeded but now i feel like all that hard work was for nothing. If you turn a the water on and let it run eventually the sink is going to over flow. 

Love has always been a challenge i havent been able to over come.