I am living my life as if I have the world and my life its self to loose. I haven't any other choice. I must carry on with my life as if everything is grand and ok. My siblings are lucky, a couple of them live life with drugs in their veins and no money in there pockets. I have to struggle and strive for every ounce of success i want to achieve. I guess that is better than having things handed to me. I dont think i have a bad life, but it would be nice to have life slow down and bad things stop happining to me. All the things that are going on in my life make me a better person and teach me to rise above any struggle that comes my way. I want to keep moving forward with everything but there are so many things that continue to hold me back i let hold me back.