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Well you know those times were you think you have fallen out of love with the one you loved the most.... It looks like  I havent and im not afraid to admit it, but its going to be awhile before i tell him i love him simply because I want things to work. My parents keep telling me to stay single and have fun but im not a casual sex kind of person. I like relationships and the good ones. I dont like the breaking up part because thats the hard part. I think what im going to do is technically be single but still be taken. I dont know, there are times when I like to be with someone and belong to someone. But then there ae those days when i cant stand men and want to be my own independent woman. Then there are the days were i miss my lover so bad that i want to cry. So im very bipolar on the couple love thing. I have always been that way, and i dont think its something i can change that easily. I am the marrying type, but there is just so much i want to do and dont know if being tied down is the way to go about it. I just dont like people telling me what to do or telling me i cant do something because thats when i want to do it even if i didnt want to do it before. Im so complicated, maybe I just like having options but i know that at this point in life i know i cant have options.